Cheshbon 11-19-08

Yesterday I went with Kate to gov't to talk about her process.  Afterwards she called me and told me how amazing I had acted... I REALLY appreciated it.  I don't know how much i told her that I did but she'll prob read this haha.  The funny part was I always feel like I haven't said enough when it comes to a lot of solving problems and working things out even though I may have said too much already.  And even though I had that feeling it was nice to get feedback that what I had done was perfect because it let me know that I don't always have to say everything on my mind.

Also I really appreciated finding the new wine supplier that is so much cheaper.  It might end up being around the same cost if I get tax return when I leave Israel but then I basically just got taxes back earlier which is better!

Rabbi Jacobs told me he'd be glad to write me a letter of recommendation for the Rabbinut.  I was really appreciative and showed him that.  I think that was purely good.

My Uncle and Aunt took me out and bought me all kinds of fruit and gave me money.  They are amazing and I told them how much I appreciated it!  I think I could have been less weird in how I said that they were givers... I wish I knew the best way of showing them how appreciative I am.  

Cheshbon

Today I was really really appreciative of my Uncle and Aunt for giving me money, food and just basically being the best givers you could imagine.  It was an overwhelming situation because they were so giving and I thanked them and told them I appreciated it and that they were such amazing giving people... but it was awkward and I never know If I should be accepting so much from family.

Also in the recent past I've really appreciated my Rosh Hashivah for helping and being supportive especially when I'm doing well in class.  But I feel, when I'm not called on or recognized I get annoyed and I could probably care less about such unimportant things.  

I really appreciated checking my CC bill, hoping it would be under 200 and finding out it was 199.85... that was ridiculous.

The wine shop has been really successful and I appreciate all my supporters and customers.

Hakorus Hatov 11-9-08

Tools:

1)      Showing hacorus hatov to another is recognizing good so you will do good back to them and spread love in the world.

2)      Show 3 people a day your hacorus hatov

3)      If you are not putting in work, the natural way of the world causes relationships to go downhill.  It’s like driving a car on a hill.  Giving is putting the car in drive… neutral and reverse only take you downhill.

 

Recognizing that Asaf spent time with me today on Hacorus Hatov.

Schar – we were talking about recognizing others and showing love to others and I wasn’t afraid to do something I knew was right even though I was being told to do it.  Sometimes I feel uncomfortable or weird doing it but I got over that.

Bad: Could probably have shown more appreciation throughout the session and more eye contact for both our sakes.

 

Appreciating how Rabbi Jacobs cared about me and is letting me call him tomorrow at 8:30 to talk about my issues.

Good – although he’s getting paid for it I still recognized it.

Bad – I didn’t tell him and I have to at least do that tomorrow.

 

Ian has been extremely friendly and warm to me recently. 

Good – I’ve been more open with him and true to him because of it. 

Bad – I really could put more effort in and show him how much I appreciate it. 

 

Kate cares a lot about me.  I call her a lot but don’t show her so much appreciation for everything she does.  

Cheshbon 11-7-08

Kate got the job with Aish for the movie!

I've appreciated services more and put so much into praying for others that I missed the entire repetition.  

The wine business is open and I've already sold 2 and soon 3 bottles.

I completed almost every goal on my goals list for the week.

I've never felt like I've been in better shape and my body is looking better than ever.  

I've enjoyed the food here thoroughly... even though it's not my favorite foods, somehow I've appreciated it to the point where it tastes amazing.

11-4-08

Prayed that phone bill wouldn't be so bad.  I check and i had used over 700 minutes on a 600 minute plan.  When I got the bill... 

It said I had used 613!!!!

WOW

love you G-d!

11-3-08 5 Minute cheshbon

So today I think I handled a situation really well with someone else who wants to move up in gemara shiur.  I think I'm better than he is at reading but I didn't get jelous at all.  I think I could have been a little less interested in the topic because I think it could have led to him being more excited to make it in and angrier if he doesn't.

I also checked in on Kate, prayed for people today and thought about others.  I think I could have done this a little better or with a little more emunah.  I know that's hard to calculate but I'll try and think about specific ways of making that better in the future when I feel I have more time.

I ordered wine today and could have been more curteous on the phone but for the mood I was in I think I was pretty nice to Michal.  

Wishes that came true... kate with making money and working in arts in israel... not true yet but a possibility with Aish.

Also Kate's father that he should be supportive of Kate... and he talked to her about the Car

Also Kate's health and she became healthier.

Parents finding more opportunities in their business

My brother looking for Judiasm more

Success with the wine thing

I know theres more that I can't think of right now.

Cheshbon 11-2-08

Today I helped Kate get the perscription she needed.  
the good:  I immediately offered and insisted on getting it because I knew she would be miserable without it.  I let her know I did it for her in a way that I think was not asking for too much credit.

The bad:  I could have left Yeshiva in a less disruptive way.  I could have let Kate off the phone more and let her know I understood how she felt to the extent that I could understand it.

Good things that happened today:

Rabbi Jacobs recognized the work I've done:  This was great because I haven't felt this from him at all yet; however, I felt something was weird about the situation like I should have shown him I had done more work or I could have worked harder. 

Talked with dad about business