It is the 2nd day of Shavuot and I'm hanging out with Sam in a coffee shop on Jaffa St in Jerusalem. This trip has been quite amazing. I don't know if I really understand what I signed up for with Yeshiva but I am still excited to be going.
I have had a feeling ever since one of the first few days, that I am in a very different place than many of the other guys. There have been a few nights when we went out to drink or do hookah and I just didn't feel like doing either. In the winter time I wanted to go to a club and dance when I was here but the most fun I've had dancing this time was at a concert where men and women were separate and we were listening to Chaim Dovid... Jewish music. I'm also in a place in which I know who I want in my future and have spent time thinking deeply about my goals.
Now I shared this with a few people, which I find I eventually do with any thoughts I have that reoccur in my mind, and I realized recently that I've been judging people a lot based on what I perceive. I don't know what other people think I am like inside when they interact with me. I think this is one of the main things I want to work on. I really need to be able to just be with a person until I really see who they are and even then give them room for change because we all put eachother "in boxes" haha as Rabbi Glaser says. But it really is true... around different people I just automatically fall into this persona that is what I view myself as to them.
Time to go write in my other blog... this two blog system is gonna be interesting haha.